Hi mates,
I just wanted to pop back in with a quick update, as many of you have been checking in. I’ve had a couple of complications from my surgery back in mid-February, and it’s taking me longer to recover than I had hoped.
Rationally, I know this time is about rest and recovery, and I also know what I would say to anyone else going through it: Take it slow. Prioritise healing. Everything will be okay.
Practically, however, I’ve had a hard time applying that advice to myself over the past couple of weeks. I heaped expectations on myself as to what my recovery would and should look like, and the reality of it is vastly different.
I can’t think very clearly, fatigue is kicking my arse and emotionally, I’m struggling with the stress and guilt of both doing and not-doing. Some of that I can’t control, but what I can control is the pressure I feel about my work here.
I’m going to pause payments for the next few weeks, which will allow me to focus on healing.
That means the billing cycles for all paid subscribers will be frozen, new readers won’t be able to purchase a paid subscription plan and existing paid subscribers won't be charged.
Once I’m back on deck, I’ll let you know before re-starting payments.
There’s a podcast episode coming out next Thursday, and hopefully I’ll be back to regular letters not too long after that, but I just don’t know. At least this way I can tilt into healing and away from this particular pressure.
Thank you all for hanging in here with me, and for your kind words, support and encouragement. It’s time I take some of my own advice.
Until I’m back in your inbox, take good care.
Brooke xx
Brooke, I love to see you walking your talk. You do far more good by modelling taking a break when you need it than you ever could by pushing through -- there's no essay you could write that would be worth forcing yourself.
Thinking of you and do all the tilting you need, we'll still be here. Honestly I would have been happy to keep paying regardless but understand if that takes the stress off you. Look after yourself 🥰